Wednesday, 26 November 2008
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You've been asking...
read a few of your entries and was just wondering,
how did you find out that youre a lesbian?I've always had a natural attraction to women and every time I looked at a man and thought of him sexually I was somewhat repulsed. I always knew, since I can remember thinking of women sexually and feeling totally satisfied with it. I realized I was a lesbian when I fell in love with my first girlfriend and actually had a physical relationship with her. That is when I knew that it wasn't just sexual fantasies. I could never picture myself being with a man, but I tried it out anyway. We had a very very good relationship, both emotionally but it just wasn't right for me. I felt like I was lying both to him and myself. Every time we had sex I was picturing a woman in my head and afterwards it felt empty. I just wanted to make absolutely and completely sure that I wasn't going to question anything later in life.
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Comments (5)
Nicely put. Happy and Healthy Thanksgiving.
question what is sexually appetizing about a women for you? i know for me.. but girls tend to think different than guys about relationships right?
I second the previous question.
What exactly is it that a girl has and a guy does not that is unfullfilling for you?
What about guys is a turnoff?
It must be nice to have a definate knowledge of what you do and don't like as far as your preferance goes.
I can never seem to decide whether or not I like men... As a rule... I normally don't have ANY interest... but every now and again one comes along and throws me completely out of whack [like... two in the last five years. but still]. Lol.
I'm curious why you felt you might question yourself later in life if you didn't try being with a man? Also, on a larger scale, why do you think people in the gay community seem to feel that way more often than straight people (because, at least in my own experiences, that seems to be the case)? I don't hold anything against you, or anyone who feels the need to experiment for whatever reason, because I've played with the idea myself. However, I think the main reason I've even thought about being with a man is because there seems to be a general idea that you can't really know you're gay unless you test it. I knew I was gay for sure when I was sixteen and I had suspicions much earlier. When I first came out I had never been with anyone and, to this day, I've only been with women. I've never even kissed a biological man and whenever the opportunity comes up I never feel even remotely inclined to take it. I can't say I never will, but it seems unlikely at this point and if I did it would have nothing to do with testing my sexuality, so I wonder why someone else would feel a need to test theirs?